Minor Breakdown Reverted.

So, I finally graduate college. I have a Bachelors degree in Communication with an emphasis in Public Relations (PR) and a Minor in Psychology. I did well in school even after switching majors and schools 3 times each. I worked HARD.

But, then we are in this awkward transition state. We have roughly 18 months before Stu goes to dental school to save money and prepare for the next 4 years. Should I find a great career kind of job now? Just for 18 months? What if I fall in love with it only to leave it?

Stu and I took about a week off for all of the holiday festivities around Christmas and the New Year then hit the job hunting scene HARD.  Everyday we were on craigslist. We went out to TONS of different places to apply for jobs. Anywhere and Everywhere. We filled out SO, SO many applications. And we didn't hear anything from anyone. We hit up all kinds of contacts and resources. We would call back after submitting applications. We even spoke to a few hiring managers, face to face. NOTHING.

And all the while we were applying to any kind of job, just to get A job right now, I kept thinking, I'll just get a random part-time job and keep looking for a "big-girl Communication job." You know, to use my degree. Good thing I graduated in like the WORST possible field for our current economy. PR is an extra cost. Why would you hire me to be your public face when you could just add that to a current employee's job duties and cut costs? I only looked for like a couple weeks  but nothing seemed to even be posted. Nothing seemed to even be available. I knew I just had to be patient and wait...but we need to work! I canNOT just sit on my butt all day and watch trashy television. I will go crazy if I am not being productive.

Then I decided to look for a nanny job as my part-time option. I found one. An amazing one. But they needed a long-term commitment. They needed me to be their nanny until I moved for dental school. They made an amazing offer and I had a decision to make. I need to be employed. We need to save money. But, if I took the nanny job, I wouldn't be able to take a "big-girl job." It would take all of my time, especially in the summer. I couldn't decide how I felt about it.

I called Jess and had a minor freak-out. Jess went through a similar situation a couple years ago. She graduated college with a Business and Marketing degree and couldn't get a job for like a year (with the help of a bad illness), but she finally got hired by a portrait studio and worked for almost 2 years in sales and taking portraits. She didn't go to school to do this. But it was a good job, and she bit the bullet and worked there  while she looked for her "big-girl job." And she now has an amazing marketing job and its pretty much this fantastic cinderella story.

My fear was that, if I took the nanny job, it would be a great experience, but I didn't want to get to wherever we were going for dental school, and look for my "big-girl job" and the employers be like, "What the heck have you been doing for the past year and a half with your degree?" I won't have any experience. I will have wasted an entire year and a half after being FRESH out of school and just working some part-time job that has nothing to do with my career choice. Would I be attractive to employers at all? I didn't do an actual internship while in school, although I did do three semesters of an in-school internship with actual clients (its just at a much smaller level than a real internship). I was mildly freaking out because I felt that I just needed a job (i've never not worked, its a weird feeling!) and that the nanny position was fantastic and available RIGHT now, but i'd have to give up looking for a PR job.

Jess calmed me down. She assured me that I could still work towards my career choice with freelance work and maybe a low-scale internship when I wasn't nannying...THIS is WHY we are friends. She assured me that if I show employers that I haven't just been throwing my knowledge away and can show that I have been working towards a future career (with internships and freelance work) and show that I have a great work ethic (by getting a job ASAP--any job), I will still be a competitive applicant. I can show that I have still been pursuing my career and will still be comfortable and able to do my job as a communication professional. Now days, you have to keep up with the times. If I showed up to an interview in 18 months and couldn't be amazing at my job, they will find someone else who will. Someone who will not have to go back to school for refreshing--someone who will probably be RIGHT out of college. So, I just need to keep updated on my field.


RELIEF. 


I just don't want to feel like I'm cheating myself. I just spent SIX years going to school. I spent ALL of that MONEY, ALL of that TIME and finally earned that piece of paper just to not do anything with it? What was the point of that six years? I am grateful for the opportunity I have had to get an education and want to show that I can use that knowledge to better myself and SHOW what I have learned. I am pumped for the future. I am pumped for a career. And I am excited for this time I have to have the job that I have been given. It is a blessing and I know it will be a blast. I love nannying. I've done it a million times. I should've just gotten my degree in that. I love kids. And I love that I get to leave them with their parents at the end of the day. Ha! Just kidding ;)

So, I'm good. I'm going to play nanny for awhile and I'm going to love it. And I have a very promising business proposition coming up that will help me get a great jump into my internship/freelancing goals. Thanks to some amazing and talented people. I am so blessed! It's like everything just fell into place. I have a job. I have a great opportunity coming up to use my college knowledge and I will have a great future in my career. I am SO blessed. My heavenly father is always looking out for me. I have amazing friends with amazing therapy skills as well :)

Here I go again! The Nanny!